where are you vincent in the mouth of sorrow youll find me vacant guilty from not grabbing
pavement or super tough without a reason why leave me here when i cant take it

i see your feet stacked in rythym like the poured concrete an effort that is lost on me you are
the sky and calming sea if there is no you then there is no me

i should have known it in your eyes so swollen and broken let me know so i can hold it forget
your pride and fucking show it dont leave us here without us knowing

i miss you vincent more than i would care to mention another moment without your hands is the
moment i wont spend me in it i miss you so much clocks go silent

happy birthday vincent...

At the Fat Cat in modesto we had a troop of actors making my brothers birthday so amazing by acting out the rocky horror picture show which vincent was part of way back in my favorite days...on vincents birthday we spoke, we drank, we celebrated a day that is now more important than any other. i understand that my brother believes in me even when i dont...and it is that fact that makes breathing so difficult. the absolute pain and heartbreak that is losing the only guiding light in my life is unbareable..i feel honestly that i cant continue.one day i may look forward to the world that he made so pretty for me...i want to see him again..i want to hear his pretty voice again..i want all the things that make the world somewhere i belong..i cant. i dont want to see the world without vincent...i dont want to hear another piece of advice that isnt from the genius i know...i knew this would be so hard..so ill leave it at this...i love my brother vincent..and as long as i live, so does he.